Red, white and blue

It is not my choice,
It is not my need,
If life is full of ease,
If your love is blind,
Then where do you and I stand.

Under the sun,
Three row of lines,
Shouting endlessly with each command,
Shoulder to shoulder we are one,
I sacrifice this life for you.

Red, white and blue,
We salute you,
Not because we have to,
Instead it's our duty,
This is where our pride and honor sets.

SEMANGAT SI AWANG

Redupnya senja,
Begitulah umpama semangatmu,
Pudarnya bulan purnama,
Begitulah umpama keindahanmu.

Bangkitlah kau dari segala keresahan,
Mungkin esok reziki akan datang,
Hentikan segala khayalan,
Berdirilah agar kau sepertimana menjelang siang.

Kau asyik dihina dan dicemuh,
Namun aku hairan kenapa kau berdiam diri?
Adakah kau takut untuk memilih?
Inilah saatnya kau bangkit dengan tiada lari.

Wahai teman,
Demi persahabatan,
Ubahlah haluan,
Untuk cerah masa depan.

Lesapnya kabus,
Begitulah umpama halanganmu,
Mentari yang memancar lurus,
Begitulah umpama impianmu.

Jangan takut dan gentar,
Jangan lari dan bersembunyi,
Hadapi cubaan dunia dengan sabar,
Lambat laun akan kau ketahui.

Biarkan mereka ketawa,
Tulikan teligamu untuk fitnah,
Bukalah matamu untuk melihat dunia,
Berusahalah dan jangan pasrah.

Ingat Tuhan,
Pegang kepada iman,
Percaya dengan impian,
Jangan lari melimpasi sempadan.

SERI

Apabila siang berganti malam
Keadaan diselimuti kelam

Hanya ketika diri mu menyambut kegembiraan
Kau akan dipakaikan baju seumpama terangnya bulan

Namun di waktu hari-hari mu yang biasa
Kau seperti badan yang bergerak namun tiada bernyawa

Disiang hari kau amat riang dan ceria
Tapi oh kenapa dimalam hari kau tidak bergembira

Aku hanya berharap kau akan kembali
Seperti mana aku ingin engkau kembali

HILANGNYA SEBUAH PUISI

Aku biarkan kau bersendirian,
Baru sekarang aku tahu apa nilai mu,
Tanpa bukti mu aku kian kesunyian,
Alangkah bagusnya kalau aku dapat bertemu dengan mu.

Sepatah ayat amat bermakna,
Apa tah lagi sebuah puisi,
Seandainya kau masih ada,
Kembali lah wahai ilham yang aku nikmati.

Kendatipun ilham yang aku perolehi,
Memang sukar untuk aku mengarang,
Mulai dini hari,
Tidak lagi aku akan meninggalkan mu keseorangan meski malam ataupun siang.

A name must go

I never blame you,
I never hated you,
Somehow your name seems to come up,
My heart for you refuses to stop.

yo anhelo para usted,
pero tú eres no mío,
usted nunca será,
su mejor olvidar todo acerca de ti.

I have found someone,
And I want to share my life with her all my lifetime,
Yet your memoir keeps haunting me,
Everywhere I go it’s you I see.

trato de hacerlo,
yo lloro por ti,
pero ella nombre aún permanecer,
la suerte no está de mi lado.

persona

different faces tells diffrent story, and every faces has its own persona and with this personas are just who we ought to be

Aku merindui mu

Hari demi hari ku merindui mu
Waktu kian merentas kehidupan ku
Melihat pahit manis hidup yang silih berganti
Hanya satu yang ku pinta
Agar kau berada disampingku setiap masa
Gelora yang melanda
Kian reda dengan kehadiranmu
Rinduku yang membara
Tetap bernyala seperti dulu
Aku tak mungkin hidup tanpa cintamu dan aku juga tidak layak menerimanya

No hopes (Ningunas esperanzas)

The love that I needed was never here,
What is it I must do to earn your love?
Should I throw a tear?
Or perhaps beg for your love?

The day you slip your hand away from mine,
I realize that your love had gone,
And now I’m just waiting for another time,
I’m just praying for something could be done.

All I ever ask of you,
All I ever need from you,
To love me just like you do,
To look at me just like you do.

I tried so hard,
I put everything on hold,
Just so I may win your heart,
To be together till time grows old.

Standing here at Dahlia’s flower shop,
I was hoping that you might come,
Yet I guess it’s time to end this hope,
For I know that you will never come.

A waiter’s dairy

I used to clean tables
I even mop the floors
Scrubed the toilet bowls
Welcome the customers at the door

What do I learn?
I understand that living is not easy
What do I earn?
Just pieces of papers that we call money

I witnessed people disrespecting me
I do not frown
Just smile and let it be
Yet deep inside I'm feeling down

From breakfast till dinner time
People just coming through with friends and families
If only they knew how tired I am
If only they can see and understand behind this smile

I served French fries
I served hot coffee
Sometimes I don't even got the chance to fill my own tummy
And yet I just keep my chin up and pretended to be happy

They say a smile can change a person's day
It work for me
But not for most of the customers
Some were polite and others just stared at me and sway
I am just a person who takes the order and delivers

By the end of the day
Coming home is the last thing on my mind
All I wanted to be is with my love
But instead I am here lying in my bed falling my tired eyes to sleep

We are soldiers

Doesn’t life suppose to be free?
Yet in a world where we live in today,
All that we can see,
That life is ruin by another life every day.

We make the rules,
We also break them,
Soldiers are use like tools,
Millions of life trap in such condemn.

We are living in world with unexpected breech.
To survive and to see another day,
To learn something new and to be able to teach,
What is the value of life we may say?

Tragedies happen for a reason,
Peace will be restore if satisfaction is fulfill,
It goes on every changing season,
Day in and day out millions of life is standing still.

Soldiers like you and I,
We don’t need anything to believe in,
It’s enough we believe in what we are fighting for and die,
Just so we may redeem this life out of sin.

Visions

Time is optimal,
We cry, we laugh and we dance.
Space is infinite,
We struggle, we survive and we lost.

Soldiers are born,
We vow, we praise and we honor.
Man are created,
We wonder, we question and we ponder.

Respect is earn,
We sacrifice, we cheat and we fall.
Life is hanging,
We defend, we fight and we win.

Wealth are made,
We give, we take and we forget.
Impecunious are avoided,
We beg, we fall and we scavenge.

Tears are drop,
We drown, we joy and we fail.
Hands are helping,
We share, we hug and we shake.

The rain

The rain cleanses everything,
Our Sorrow,
Our Pain,
Our anger,
The rain cleanses all in between.
Children are playing under the rain,
As though as the world belongs to them,
They vanquish the sorrow in them.
The grounds are muddy,
The trees are shaken,
The winds are as cold as an icy breath.
Birds are seeking shelter in their nest,
Every corner of mother earth is soaked,
The clouds are as dark as my coffee I had this morning.
Thunder slashes its way through the sky,
All I need to do is to wonder why,
Will this rain really purify everything it touches?
Will it bring life back as normal as before?
Will we ever see the same rain again tomorrow?
To those questions I can only say,
It’s just a rain.

Bury your troubles

My love, you kept your misery to yourself,
How can I understand?
If I took out a book from its shelf,
If I read it then I might understand.

Look at your future far beyond,
There will be a door awaits you in the end,
I don’t want to break this bond,
I know you will find me just fine.

Every aspect of your life,
I know your pain,
Because I know life is not so plain.

From the outside you are a happy go lucky,
But inside of you lies pain and misery,
Just want you to know,
I also suffer the same sorrow.

Don’t try me

I will try with all my might,
I will try with all my bold,
I will not sleep through the night,
I will find my precious gold.

If you think I can’t do it,
I will keep on trying,
I don’t care if it will take me a decade,
This is not a denying.

I may not be an angel,
But don’t think I will not try,
Don’t even think to make me riddle,
There would be no tear.

My love

There is a wonderful place,
Where there would be happiness in our face.

To find you in this way of tragic,
I got nothing but words of magic.

I can turn sadness into laughter,
I can remove things that bother.

Sooner or later only time can tell,
I’ll be waiting for you under the bell.

All my life

If tomorrow never come,
I would think for a while,
Whether you should be my number one,
Then I will smile.

My love is not going to rust,
Yet turn itself into dust,
I will prevent it with all of my trust,
And my love toward you is so vast.

If you feel the same way too,
Make your dream come true,
If you feel the same way I do,
Then our love shall break through.

Each day I learn every thing new,
And I don’t know why,
The only thing I know,
Is that this is not going to be our last good bye.

caged

I had spread my wings,
Somehow I am still attached to this puppet strings.

I want to be cut free,
But when will it be?

I always dream of happiness,
But all I get is sadness.

I tried to get rid of my grudge,
Instead it won’t budge.

By some mean I must try,
And it will not going to make me cry.


I can take all the blame,
But I could not take all the shame.

This pain inside of me is agony,
And I don’t want it to stay in me for eternity.

One day I wish to be out,
Any place far from life’s roundabout.

Down with bribery

No man left untold,
No hands left untouched,
When life is so brittle,
Lust is the only thing we can reach.

Centuries had passed,
Yet the rules are simple,
To negotiate,
Not to be fickle.

Some may do it for love,
Some may do it in the name of desperate,
They will never see the danger looming above,
The only thing stand in between is to surrender and to compensate.

Money buys all your clothes,
So you may think,
Instead it only gives you uncertain woes,
So you may give up on everything.

Riding witht he wind

my love is also my time,
I take everything only for granted,
Yet i still cant even make you mine,
Although time is on my side.

Now i can see my own mistake,
That is why im stranded on this island,
I no longer can smell the breakfast you used to make,
And what of the children we use to read them fairy tales.

hold my hand,
I will take you on a ride with the wind,
To a place where dream last forever,
Where love will begin to bind.

I miss the air,
I miss the sunshine,
I wonder how it feels up there,
I wonder how it taste like on the ground.

our father

Sister, can you believe what father had done?
He cut this rope and let us run.

Can you heal these broken words from within?
I wanted us to be together once again.

Dear sister, maybe you will understand,
I don’t want you to cry for this man.

Dreams cannot be stolen from you,
Yet it will make you into two.

Soon the truth shall be reveal,
And it will break this seal.

You had bit more than you need,
It will make you bleed.

Hey dad, look at me,
I am the one who could not be set free.

Deep inside of me place a burning of fire,
So give us what we desire.

Leave yourself behind,
And let us make up your mind.

sons of the gun

Time grows older,
Politics are just man made,
They will soon grow wrinkles,
In the end life is just another state.

Where is the freedom when we needed it?
Who will save us from our own mistake?
What is wrong and what is right?
How do we redeem life that’s lost to innocence?

Hatred breeds revenge,
Corruption leads injustice,
Deception creates espionage,
Weapons are use with ease.

Life is already beautiful,
Only we make it harder to live,
Where life is so ample,
We seek another day to survive.

another try

If ever I reach to the very end of my chapter,
I know you will be there when I am gone.

Wish I can turn yet another page to fold,
So that you know you will know how deep you are in my soul.

I dare to fail,
Even bite the nail.

Then make me miss you,
Then make my dream come true.

I never what to be far from you,
Even a day I wish to be your side.

All those things I chased,
I could not believe it would come down to this.

As pages slowly turn,
I only wish to try all over again.

i will be there

When you walk,
You walk like you don’t care,
You are as smooth as a silk,
And you are as cool as the air.

Sometimes just by thinking of you,
Makes me relief,
My pain and stress are true,
It just flew away by itself.

We see the same cloud,
We even share the same feeling,
I will tell you what it is all about,
I will tell you the whole meaning.

All I want from you is to wait me there,
The place where we usually share our burden together,
The place which is so dear,
I will be there waiting for you my lover.

a blind girl

My dear
tell me what they had done
I know you could not see the brightness of the sun.

Though you could not see the world
But you are way different from any other girl

People look down on you
I do not want you to think that I do

I do not love the way you are
I love what is inside of you that I care

Come and lay beside me
Then let love be..

First time

I am willing to lose it all,
No matter if it means by destroying my body,
I will climb up the wall,
I know I will get there someday.

Do you remember the first time we met?
We had nothing to say,
So, I brought you to a place to eat,
And then we talk that very day.

I never thought that a person like you exist,
I am lucky to be with you,
You show me the way out from this mess,
And I just want to say thank you.

Till death do us apart

Open your eyes and see,
If I can understand you then you can understand me.

We spent our lives in a waste,
We should feel wonderful to taste.

To taste the miracle of being alive,
We only move forward as we drive.

Remember one thing,
That we can’t move back.

In the end eventually we have to go,
Leaving nothing only sorrow.

I can’t do it

I can’t do it, if you say to leave your world alone.
I can’t do it, if you told me to stop loving you.
Give me a good reason,
Why I should not love you.

It’s hard for me to not think about you,
Your smile makes my heart warm,
And I wish I could love you,
If only you can understand I wanted to be in your arms.

Yet I do understand now,
The reason behind your denial,
It’s because your heart belongs to another,
But I’m sure you are happy in such a good hand.

I can’t do it, if you say that you love anymore,
I can’t do it, if you long for me,
Because I know your heart will never be mine forever,
Thus I can only keep this love just for me.

I am not Icarus

Go look up in the sky,
You will not going to see Icarus,
Instead you will see me fly,
I fly until I would reach Mars.

I will not be back home for supper,
Tell that to our children,
Also I will be higher,
Pass through the Earth’s horizon.

If I never come back home,
Please do not cry for me at my grave,
Because it will be a shame,
I am never being away from your life.

There will be a special place,
Where we shall reunite,
Believe me you can see it through my face,
Until then I always dream about you every night.

Deep, far, high and strong

How deep is my love?
Its deeper than the ocean on earth.

How far is my love?
Its far pass beyond the earth’s horizon.

How high is my love?
Its as high as the sky above beyond the heaven.

How strong is my love?
Its stronger than the blow of hurricane.

On top of all that,
Nothing can match my love that I give to you.

You are my everything

You are the reason why I could fly,
You never turn your back on me,
That is the reason I don’t have to wonder why.

There is no one better,
Than you,
I can be your court jester.

If you are in sadness,
Do not worry,
I can change it into happiness.

You always there,
When I needed,
You always give me care.

I want you and me to be as one,
To live together in happiness,
For a moment to forget the meaning of being alone.

With you

Everyday I put my trust in you,
Each day there will always be something new.

I never care what they will say,
I have my own life together and I am going to live it this way.

If I had a chance,
I wish we can dance,

When I am feeling in blue,
You always tell me never to give up on things we do.

I want to hold your hand,
And lay down at night on the Sahara desert sand.

I will tell everything about life,
On what it had thought us mostly about love

End of the road

As I stared at the burning of fire,
I know tomorrow will come with a different desire.

Though life is only once,
I will not stay silent like a dunce.

I did many interesting things in life,
Even I got my life at the edge of a knife.

It’s a human nature,
Sometimes we are on top and sometimes we are nowhere.

If I am gone one day,
And failed to say goodbye,

I want you to know that I never fail to know a person like you,
Thank you.

im already there

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
But when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there 'till the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there 'till the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There

Concrete jungle

I thread this land lightly,
I smell the air with grace and harmony.
Today I saw birds flying across the wide blue sky,
Watching them it makes my heart wanted to fly.
But not here,
Trees are replaced with steel poles,
Land burrows and pits are replaced by giant stainless steel manholes.
Animals and birds are replaced by mean machine,
This is the concrete jungle.
Where every morning your don’t hear birds singing,
Instead heavy motors are constantly honking.
The moon always hides beyond the tall building,
Only its light penetrates through the ceiling.
The air felt so congested,
The subways were crowded.
There is no place here to rest our tiny mind,
We are living in a place where we can lose track of time.
The heat wave is burning our skin,
It’s like God is punishing for our sin.
This is the concrete jungle,
A hard place to begin with,
Yet the easiest place to achieve our dreams.

Ugly girl

People say that you are ugly,
That is not what you are to me.

You will always be beautiful,
No matter how awful you may look.

People say you have small eyes,
But that won’t melt my heart into ice.

I don’t care what outside tells me,
The truth is I love you the way you are now.

No earthly creature can break us apart,
Because you are the only one in my heart

Me, myself and I

Here I am,
Living with the loneliness once again.

I wasted it all,
I let it fall.

I want to understand,
I want to know where in this world I stand.

I am lost,
Who will take me away from this mess?

I am consume with fears,
I am shower with tears.

I will gain victory,
Each time I wake up everyday.

I still can swim alone in my life,
Without you I am not motionless to dive.

Isle of paradise

Tomorrow comes to take me away,
I wish that I could stay.

My breath shall stops tomorrow,
My eyes shall shut forever.

I don’t want tomorrow you cry for me,
This is not want I want you to be.

I love you more than anything else,
Don’t you worry I will be there waiting for you at the isle of paradise.

Paradise on earth

I dreamt of the deep blue sea,
I will keep this dream in my memory.

A small island where only you and me,
I will make you see.

We shall sit at the by the beach with its breeze,
And let our emotion fly with ease.

All of these words had been spoken,
And my promises to you will never be broken.

We will never be separated,
My heart is where your love is situated.

We will built a happy family,
That would last eternity.

Ocean is not the reason

Allow me touch your hand,
Each time we cross path I can only smile.

But please when we meet again raise your hands towards the sky.
Heave them toward the sky as you are going to touch it high.

Though you can’t reach them,
But when you try you will not feel the same.

I am going to miss your sweet smile,
But you will be leaving for many miles.

You are never to far away,
But inside my heart you will always be there.

My friends

I want to go back to the place where I once belong,
To be at a place where I am welcome and feel strong.

When I felt like giving up,
When I felt like wanted to make everything stop.

I know that I have friends,
Friends that always stand up for me until the end.

Without them I am no one,
But with them I am one.

The liberation

Liberate ones soul, not to cry for it.
Children are running free, beyond this land and into the clouds.
Through the dreams we hold, and into the memories we keep.
We live our life the way it should be, passing each day with uncertainty in our hands.

With this life where do we stand, with this path were do we go from.
With a small choice we made, means a colossal change in our life bound its way.
We kept our loves ones and friends, we only wish for their comfort and warmth.
Yet destiny is still unknowingly looming above our head, with each and passing nights and days.

We give so much to this world, yet what do we give back to ourselves.
Only weariness stays with those who can’t seem to see the way, only light shines to those who believe.
Just like another page been fold, it only shows greases on every pages.
Will we ever learn to trust ourselves nor do we trust others who we think they care, and what of those who we live to die for and heave.

A lover by the vending machine

I drove down to corner of Jack’s street,
I’m surprise to see you standing by the vending machine,
I looked at my watch and realize that it was already late,
The air was cold and soon it began to rain.

I ran to my car to get an umbrella,
When I returned you were gone,
The only thing left is the sweet scent of your hair,
I know something had to be done.

Frustration followed me throughout the night,
Wondering where could you be,
My mind felt so uptight,
Why did you have to leave without saying a word to me?

The day after I lost sight of her,
I saw her again by the vending machine,
This time I know I wont lose sight of her,
She looked at me and smiled.

The rain pours down again,
I sigh and ran back again to my car to get a coat,
I turn to you but once again you are gone,
Is it just me or is it my mind still floats?

falling

I never thought that I am sinking,
struggling as I am but still I am drowning.
I must survive,
Since I know this is my life.
I will live it my way,
Not ever thinking all those bad things.
I am not going to make the same mistake,
And I had known not to give and take.

My teacher my light

I learn how to read,
I learn how to write.

I see myself with proud,
Still I keep on making the same mistake in and out.

I try to get up from this battle,
But I feel like a genie trap in a bottle.

When you release me,
Now then I can see.

You are not just my friend but also my teacher,
Where ever you are you will always be in my heart to remember.

savior

You gave me the hope to live again,
I wonder how I can repay them,
I fought the pain that I had sustain,
Starting from today things will never be the same again.

I don’t know what might happen to me,
If I never knew and love you,
Perhaps I still could not see,
What is deception and what is true.

I don’t understand why you don’t want to leave me all alone,
Is it because you had feelings for me?
Or are we meant to be together since the day we were born,
I don’t exactly know the answer to it; but one thing for sure I will always love you.

Promises

Nobody can take me away,
I only wanted to stay,
I need you to hear me say,
I will be with you everyday.

I w ill be here until the sky falls down,
Nevertheless you are no where to be found,
I look for you underground,
You know that I won’t let you drown.

I know what I want to see,
Please I want you to let me be,
My mind and yours will not disagree,
It’s because this is me.

I need to spread these words,
And I want you to say all the things that you heard,
You and I are free like the bird,
I promise that I will never make you hurt.

Running with hopes

Life is full of mystery,
It’s fine to let things the way it is,
That is what you are and that is what you could,
We can’t stop the flow of reality.

Yet there are still some of us, who still believe in fables,
Each in every one of them lives a child,
Even if they are not able,
We were once like them.

I can’t bear to see the burden,
Behind those pretending faces,
I learn to appreciate time,
And all I have to do is just believe.

To seek

We chase away the same blue sky,
Vow to see the beauty that lies beyond it.

Merchants ever longing wanted to set their hands on the golden moon,
But in reality they can’t own it.

Warriors showing off their tremendous strength,
Yet it means nothing without knowledge.

Poets trying to express their inner feeling to the world,
It means nothing if it's just empty words.

Youngsters seeking for true love,
In the end what is the use if they still able to divide their love.

I who is ever searching for the true meaning of life,
It's nonsense if I don’t believe in my self.

Where soldiers are

I raised my head up high,
Close my eyes and sigh.

Am I a soldier?
Am I a warrior?
Am I a survivor?

Time can change a lot of perspective,
It alone can also lead to a sad tale of our life.

Why do guns have trigger?
Why do we have to live in fear?
Why do we seek a liberator?

We put this life on the line for our country,
We sacrifice everything and went down in history.

Do we need to die for honor?
Do we wish to see such failure?
Do we need to let people to see our future?

Victory can also mean defeat,
Yet only certain people can accept it.

Who should we point our fingers to?
Who should stay to lead and who should go?
Who will feed the children to grow?

Eyes only shows what we want to see,
Instead we take things for granted and just let it be.

Where do this coat of arm will mean anything to them anymore?
Where do people like us stand with honor?
Where in our heart lives virtue?

We will not die in vain,
Although living means suffering so much pain.

Are we that expandable?
Are we pawns to the castle?
Are we the king of spades or the Jack of diamonds?

Politics are blurry and fickle,
They soon grow old with wrinkles.
We can change everything one at a time,
Yet there is no road that can lead us to commit crime.

Take a look at your self

Let all the happiness burn all your woes,
Love can’t buy you cloths.
Money is not everything which is so dear to you,
Love is dearer that lies inside of you.
Without it you are nothing but a walking puppet,
Just waiting commands from a puppet master.
No need to think so deep,
You are just lucky to lead a wonderful life.
Though you don’t have the wealth,
But life can unite everyone.

Understanding me

Days changes to night,
Night changes to day,
I can’t understand where in this life I stay.

Bad turns to good,
Good turns to bad,
I have been living in my life in full sadness.

Hot turns to cold,
Cold turns to hot,
I will carry on my life with all the knowledge I had.

Anger turns to doubt,
Doubt turns to anger,
Just let go of the bad things and make it part of your memory.

No matter what…I’ll wait

I sleep,
I dream,
I awake,
It happens every day.

You come,
To me,
With love,
My life changes from that day on.

You held,
My hand,
With warmth,
I feel I can’t let you go.

You hug,
You kiss,
You wave,
I knew that leaving you is so hard.

I wait,
So long,
No matter what,
In due course we will meet again.

If not today,
Maybe tomorrow,
If not tomorrow maybe soon,
But for sure I will wait.

Through my window

I watched you through my window,
Hopping that you will never have to go,
But when you closed the door,
I can’t wait to see you anymore.

I dream of you and me together,
Yet that dream won’t last forever,
As soon I opened my eyes everything is over,
Still I kept my love to you with one desire.

Please look me in the eyes,
Then tell me what you see,
You will know how precious you are to me,
Soon you will realize that my love is not worth of any price.

Wherever

Wherever…
In the end we’ll met.

My dream to find love,
In which is so far away from the eye,
I wait until I die.

You are my dream,
You are my hope,
If you ask me to swim,
I do it with no doubt.

As the time for us to meet draws closer,
You are the only one in my heart none other,
My love to you is unbreakable,
Though there were many obstacles,
But…

Wherever…
In the end we’ll meet.

When a poet cries

I could not understand what went wrong?
Our love used to be so strong,

I know what I have seen,
I know where I have been.

I acted like I never know,
In fact I realize and I do.

Yesterday you held my hand,
Yesterday we roam this peaceful land.

But not today,
Ever since you said those words that leave me in agony.

What ever happen to promises?
Are they meant to be broken and leave it in a mess?

Morning tear

Birds are flying happily in the air,
As I woke up early in the morning,
I felt a flow of a morning tear,
Do my tears of mourning.

I wanted to lead a normal life,
Without you anymore I do not know what to do,
I think that I could no longer strive,
I used to believe in you.

We been together for such a short time,
But those times means a lot to me,
It’s not wasted like a dime,
Nor can I let it be.

You will always be in my heart,
Though you have given me back my love,
I could not stop reality from both of us being apart,
This is just part of life.
We take it or leave it,
I could not force you to make a decision,
It is up to you to choose it,
After all I know who I really am.

Colors of feelings

Skies are blue,
Apples are red,
All my memories of you,
Had turn into shred.

Leaves are green,
Pelicans are white,
You thought that I am not so keen,
You are wrong instead I am right.

Morning glories are purple,
Peaches are orange,
I have shown to the world that I am able,
I am able to live my life with a single branch.

Honeys are yellow,
Peanuts are brown,
My feeling towards you had become shallow,
Everything we shared together I buried them down.

Shadows are black,
Flamingos are pink,
You underestimated my will behind my back,
And thus let’s just leave this old boat and let it sink.

The wanderer: part 1

One day as the sun’s heat falls,
A man from the land of the snow,
Walk his way through the blazing dunes,
Wearing a white robe and a tiny sack of gold,
He rubs his sweat away with his right hand,
He even gawks at the sun while it shines.

Further as he walks,
A chime of bells began to ring,
He stops and wonders,
He lay low and left his mark,
As he passes the dunes and started to think,
Either life is just a saga nor to muse onto the stars.

He walks through the open gate,
His eyes slides from side to side,
Only to know that his presence was unwelcome,
All things suddenly began to stand still as though as time is at break,
When a soothsayer emerges from the darkness of the alley he hides,
He told him that the moment for the chosen one has come.

Set sail to the east,
Where you will find the answer,
The tomb of seven warriors,
The soothsayer then nodded with ease,
And gave a tarot card of a reaper,
Sign of a coming death approaches.

As he fades into the darkness,
Time then moves smoothly once again,
The man of our story left the vicinity without questions,
Only to travel toward the east and never to return again,
Leaving everything at will and traveling for a reason.

Reminiscence’s diner

Please say to me that all of these are over,
Say to me that these sorrows disappear,

I can only see that time will stay,
I can only wait for that day,

Look how happy we were,
Remember how we use to be together,

The hands of time ticks,
Yet my heart remain weak,

I will wait for you at the usual diner,
And don’t forget the lasagna

Just keep in mind,
Just keep in line,

I know you are here not for me,
But for the love we once had,

The smile

It’s been a while now,
Since the last time we met,
Things are different now,
Just lonliness and silence.

If I wait any longer,
Will my love be there in my heart?
If I can hold your smile forever,
Will it keep us away from being apart?

Standing at things to come,
I will keep your smile in my heart,
If you ever to return home,
This man will welcome you with wide open arms.

The sorrow from Autumhill

All the time I spent,
Where leafs began to fall,
When a story comes to book end,
I come to see it is not over just as I was told.

The cry and tears I left behind,
Seems so yesterday,
There are so much more left undone,
Yet there will always be another day.

Standing at these gate,
I am having second thoughts about coming home,
Whether I will be welcome or hated,
Maybe and just maybe I might as well leave this dream.

The begining

The heart is full of mysteries,
There lies good and evil,
If only you can see the answer beyond these space,
You will understand why the pictures had stop to smile.

The mirror that reflect myself,
the image is not what it seems,
The sadness hides deep within myself,
It feel just like in a dream.

All this time i'm chasing,
Just so I may understand the reason,
Emptiness is what there is in finding,
You exist only in me just to run.

Is your name Alessa?
If so why are you here?
Why did you stop by Toluca?
So many question but so little time to be answer.

Langkah

Di tanah merah ini aku melangkah,
Mataku dikaburi oleh cahaya terik matahari,
Aku terpaku menatap pelangi yang dihiasi penuh warna,
Tetapi sayang aku di sini cuma sendiri.

Lambaian demi lambain,
Kanak-kanak berlari seakan dunia milik mereka,
Biar hidup bersandarkan impian,
Semoga kelak hidup akan bahagia.

Detik yang berlalu tidak akan kembali,
Seri wajahmu akan kian pudar,
Namun cintamu tetap berada dihati,
Meskipun engkau nun jauh di samudra.

Kuwabara Kuwabara

Kuwabara kuwabara,
This are the chant,
Kuwabara kuwabara,
Will it not strike us by any chance.

The tears may rain upon us,
A roar will thunder its way,
It slashes every corner of the clouds,
Some may see it in dismay.

A swift wind gushing through,
The land trembles in fear,
Children may stop to laugh,
They will cry aloud with eyes fill with tears.

Kuwabara kuwabara,
Will it ward from us?
Kuwabara kuwabara,
Will it ever protect us?

To love and care

Like a shoothing star,
it comes and go,
Like your tender and care,
I would never know.

The ocean is not the same anymore,
Our lives changes somehow,
Even a slight mistake we take the blame for,
what does it cost to protect our love ones and how do we show.

We can't blame a person to be what they are,
We can't even see the possibilities,
We can only love and care,
To love and care not for ourselves but for our responsabilities.

Waiting for you

Your gentle voice i hear,
your words echo inside me,
you said you long for me that you love me,
and i want to see you too,
feels just like i'm falling,
is there nothing i can do?
Wonder if you hear my calling.

I'm here waiting for you,
where are you i cant find you,
i'm here waiting for you,
i'll wait forever for you

Chuchotement dans le vent

I come here to see you,
To watch the beauty of the rainbow together,
I come here to listen to you,
To hear you say that we will live on forever.

Instead I can only sense the wind,
It blows swiftly through me,
Whispering words from within,
It tells me that life is filled with serenity.

If life is as perfect as a fairy tale,
I would not go all the trouble being here,
Your smile can change the world,
Your love can release my heart free.

If the wind tells me where to go,
If it directs me where to hover,
I would fly to you,
I will come to lean onto your shoulder.

My last tribute to a ‘little princess’

If I had a gift to stop the flow of time just for a day,
I would gladly spend it with you,
Loving you,
Caring you,
And most important of all is to be there when you need me.

Though you are no longer with me,
I can still feel you warmth,
Your touch,
You sensitivity,
Embrace all the sweet moment that we had shared together.

You are one in a million to me,
From the way you think,
The way you speak,
The way you advice,
And the way you look into me.

I always have and always will never going to stop loving you,
Because you gave me chance,
Lesson,
Hopes,
And your pure love.

That is who I am

I am not a man of letters,
I believe in what I wrote all these years.

Never believe in what people say about me,
Tell that to the others and let them see.

They never thought that I would make it this far,
But to go through all this I wage my own war.

I felt down several times,
But I got up on my feet many times.

Never to turn back

The rain drizzled upon me,
For some reason I don’t really care about it,
I only wanted to see,
How I go through this life with such defeat.

A winner takes it all,
Does not mean they deserve it,
Losers suffer from the great fall,
Does not mean they deserve it.

The world never turns its back on us,
Instead it is us, who turn our back to the world,
Believing it with all our trust,
Someday we will be on top of the world.

Dear lonely heart…

Tonight I dance alone,
Under the cloak of night,
Dancing by myself,
Knowing what I had done.

I come and go into your life,
I roam where ever I may,
I sometimes could hardly understand myself,
There is no courage in me to go through the curve.

I talk to myself at night,
Just to keep me company,
Or just maybe,
Hoping you would still be with me by my side.

I know I am wrong,
These tears had run dry,
I could not bare these burdens on my shoulders,
I felt like I am not that strong.

But I will not give up on you,
I hunger for your touch,
I pray that god would accept you,
For I know that you will wait for me and I know it’s true

Turning table

There is so many souls need to be feed,
As if it is going to satisfy what they need,
Some would even bleed,
For Their heart still hunger for greed.

There would come a day,
When we are able to give away,
Everything we own just simply fly,
At that moment we began to pray.

Why we do not remember God in time we are contented?
Why do we only remember to pray to him when there is only misery?
Why we pray everything hoping for Him to reply?
Why God do not grant our prayers since we had tried?

It is time to turn the table back,
We used to forget God and then He shall forget us in such wreck,
He might forgive us if only we realize our own foolish mistake,
And then probably we will no longer forget God for heaven sake.

Tears that gone dry

I wonder how long I can suffer,
I wonder when it will stop,
You and I used to be together,
But now I wonder how I can cope.

Everything we did was like so yesterday,
We climb those green hills together,
Your face filled with happiness and joy,
As if the expression could last forever.

But why today I feel that yesterday was only a dream,
You left me without saying anything,
I feel like I had been condemned,
I even started to forget those songs that we used to sing.

There are still so many things left undone,
Such as my promises to you,
Just as when our love going to as one,
What I had feared that could happen between us came true.

I believe you have millions of reasons for doing this to me,
Due to this I never hated you,
Instead you set our love free,
For all the time we spent together it brought me closer in remembering you.

Reality bites

The wind no longer spoke,
The sky no longer smile,
Furthermore I still feel the choke,
Of every word you said to me in such vile.

You left me with nothingness,
In which you think you could get away,
It is you, who will end up in such emptiness,
Since you let your life time just fly by.

You should never deny reality,
No matter whom you really are,
It is the only thing that keeps you, me and others in unity,
Denying it means denying everyone you care.

Money and wealth are not everything,
Learning about accepting who we really are is priority,
Never run away from troubles without even trying,
Keep on trying until the day come for us to cry in joy.

The duty

Tears means nothing
I stand before you
With no choice and no chance
Try to accept everything
I know deep inside you the feeling is true
Take a long last glance.

These words will not bleed from me
I will come back
Still it is neither a lie nor the truth
It is up to you to believe in me
Mind the heartache
The Grim will not come to claim my death.

A promise is a must
Furthermore I want you and our children
To wait for my return at the door step
Though sooner I will hunger for your tender and kiss
Until then do not keep yourself in severe pain
Wait for me and I will be there standing at the door step.

I can only smile with tears

I can only smile with tears,
Seeing the birds fly by,
With a million of hopes to be fulfill,
Still,
I am struggling the fear with fierce,
Wanting to see it will end someday,
Instead to see it fail.

This love could not withstand to wait,
Within the grasp of time,
However to whom I should give it to,
Still,
I am too afraid,
To face the truth as it worth the same,
It left me out of clue.

A waste of breath may presume,
Since I know the answer is ‘No’,
I know who I really am,
Still,
It’s like a long jump,
That I could not say ‘No’,
Because I know I am not like them.

Let this tears run dry,
Until I can once again smile,
With a smile without tear,
Still,
When I begin to cry,
I know everything will be just fine,
Without any regret and fear.

SEMANGAT

Redupnya senja,
Begitulah umpama semangatmu,
Pudarnya bulan purnama,
Begitulah umpama keindahanmu.

Bangkitlah kau dari segala keresahan,
Mungkin esok reziki akan datang,
Hentikan segala khayalan,
Berdirilah agar kau sepertimana menjelang siang.

Kau asyik dihina dan dicemuh,
Namun aku hairan kenapa kau berdiam diri?
Adakah kau takut untuk memilih?
Inilah saatnya kau bangkit dengan tiada lari.

Wahai teman,
Demi persahabatan,
Ubahlah haluan,
Untuk cerah masa depan.

Lesapnya kabus,
Begitulah umpama halanganmu,
Mentari yang memancar lurus,
Begitulah umpama impianmu.

Jangan takut dan gentar,
Jangan lari dan bersembunyi,
Hadapi cubaan dunia dengan sabar,
Lambat laun akan kau ketahui.

Biarkan mereka ketawa,
Tulikan teligamu untuk fitnah,
Bukalah matamu untuk melihat dunia,
Berusahalah dan jangan pasrah.

Ingat Tuhan,
Pegang kepada iman,
Percaya dengan impian,
Janganlah kau lari dari segala masalah dan melimpasi had sempadan.

Tears of the sun

Once in the coldness of dawn,
I looked upon the stars above,
I realize that you have given me brawn,
With you tender and love.

While remain waiting for sunrise,
I think about you,
How would your life end up if you never know me,
Who knows what might become of you.

I am all alone,
Without anyone to give my love no more,
No friends at all,
The only thing left inside is love towards you forever more.

Let the sun shines,
Yet the stars will not disappear,
It will still shine,
It goes the same for my love the will not disappear.

the best offer

the hands of time still ticking,
my heart is still beating.

can you see the wonder beyond the horizon,
can you stop and give me the reason.

every life i come across never too bitter,
yet not all of them seen such better days to remember.

reminiscence is all i got and that is what to it,
to be able to taste the beauty and wonder of life.

make haste my friend not waste,
we live not only for today but not also for yesterday.

we might cry sometime,
there will always be a shoulder to lean against our sorrow over time.

the point of life is to never give into lust,
you stop and think about what you did is wrong or right.

You

The stars I see no more,
This fog is still within my sight,

I can fell your love is slipping away,
Or is it my love that is slipping away.

Now I am swimming in river of tears,
Wondering when the tides will be over.

I wanted to love again,
However there is still something that blocks my path.

The deeper I try to understand about it,
I know the reason why.

The reason is only a word away,
The reason is not so difficult to say.

It is ‘You’,

August girl

2nd of August,
I saw you smiling in front of me,
Staring as I am,
With a love crush,
Still I remember that pony tail.

2nd of August,
I store your laughter and smile,
Nevertheless your pair of eyes captured my attention,
They made my heart chime,
It brings melody into my vision.

Being somebody “Our lives stands before a cross road, it is up to us to lead the right path.”

You can be what ever you want to be,
You can raise high if you want to fly,
You can wipe tears to make it dry,
You can be someone,
To look up us high,
Change your way as it passes by.

You can do whatever you want to do,
You can be somebody too,
You can make yourself happy,
You can be someone,
To make people proud,
To make haste of everything that you left behind.

You can go anywhere you want to go,
As long as there is will,
You still have the chance to hope,
You can be someone,
To let them know,
You are not the same as what they think.

You can seek what ever that you are seeking,
Before your time is due,
You can look for it from heaven to earth,
You can be someone,
Just by thinking that you are,
Just by knowing who you are.

You can wish for whatever you want to wish for,
Even if it means changing the way life is now,
You can do it if you keep on trying,
You can be someone,
If you believe in yourself,
Have faith in God above.

You can believe in what ever you want,
As long as it is good,
No one will change it for you without any reason,
You can be someone,
If only you change yourself,
Before you change someone else.
Then you can be somebody

Words that are written in my heart

Look at the stars,
Look at how they shine on you.

I have known you for a very long time,
But why sometime I felt that this feeling is not mine.

Each time when I am close to you,
I just feel like I want more.

You made me realize my own mistakes,
You made me know how to be someone who never takes.

You are not just pretty,
But you are more than meets the eye.

All of these time I always throw up chances,
Just like how easily I steeped on every branch.

I would never perhaps know you,
Or even understand about me and you.

If you never told me all of those things that made me think about life.
Things that I yet to see.

I admit I am not good at what I am talking,
For some reason this is the only place I can speak of what I am thinking.

Please teach me not just about the sky is the mirror to the ocean,
But also teach me more about life with a valuable lesson.

There is no word I can say to you,
Even thank you is still isn’t enough to express these words from within yet true.

May I ask of you a favor?
Will you be there?
Where?
I will be here,
Why?
Will you be someone?
Who I never have to forget ever again?
You will not going to find me here,
You will not going to find me there,
But you will always find me in your heart….

The moment I saw you cry

The moment I saw you cry,
I know that sometimes I made you hurt,
Not my attention to make matters intensify,
But a moment or two, crying can make your pain out with ease.

With prayer and deep silence,
Please wipe away those tears of yours,
By my time there will be no one else,
Only you I care the most, of all richness.

I want to see a smile on your face,
Not just for today but for now and forever,
I want your heart carving with bliss,
Do it for me, do it for happiness.

The moment I saw you cry,
I wanted to hold you in my arms,
Trying to comfort you in any way,
Trying to wash away that sadness deep within.

Don’t you cry every night and day after,
If you want to cry,
Throw your sadness on my shoulder,
I will be there for you.

Time and time again,
I don’t want to see that sorrow ever again,
Please understand,
I am not here to make you cry or try to make your heart scream,
Instead I am here trying all my best to be there for you.

Tell me now

Tell me now that due time one’s heart shall change,
Time will seek,
Time will heal though your heart is untamed,
I search heaven and earth just to find that time I lost,
Through this land I roam,
Under this black clouds I cry,
Waiting for something that I am not sure about,
Tell me now that due time it will atone our sin,
As payment of our past and future wrong doing,
Don’t make my eyes see that time will hurt you,
Me and…
Everyone I know,
Fate is in time,
Time is in our choosing,
And our choices is within our grasp,
Tell me now that due time all that sadness shall disappear,
Just like how the morning dew dries,
Thou will witness that time goes so merely invisible,
Yet those times we had left will not come back,
Not like how we go back and forth.
Tell me now that due time it will sew back bleeding wounds,
Days will eventually pass by,
Leaving us with memories of what we had done,
We sometime would lose so much,
Still we tend to lose more when the merrier we lose,
Nothing is there,
Nothing is here,
Only time,
Only passing days and only passing nights,
Tell me now that due time it will reveal what we are looking for,
One should not live just by looking one or two things in life,
In order to live life,
One should seek for the meaning of life,
Even if our time has come for us to go,
Thus far it will not stop the searching,
Because life and time is bound to stick to each other,
Tell me now that due time everything shall look at the time,
Waiting,
Anxious,
Patience,
And for that,
Time will not change,
Time will not go back
Time is only a passer by within our life.

A world to live with you

Bones will eventually heal,
Bruises will eventually fade,
You,
You are not me,
I am not you,
Your life and mine,
Isn’t the same but still,
We went through obstacle in our life,

Days will eventually change,
Rain will eventually stop,
Me,
Me who is not yet ready,
To face the world,
Without you,
Without your guidance,
In this world I need you,

Time and space

Sitting here under these trees
It brings back memories
In which not mine to choose
From where it slips under.

The sky sees to many tears
I am here waiting for all these years
Just to hold on to those I promise
Perhaps they are waiting for me.

Things that crawl under my skin
Isn’t what I had imagine
Neither what I need to assume
The good nor the bad.

Point of views is useless
In this dire time and space
The spoken insist listing their speech
For what this mouth of mine is made.

Sitting here under these trees
Won’t change what had pass
Views and decision aren’t mine to take
But they are mine to make.

Tears of a poet

If you come now,
I can’t promise that all will end,
Neither can anyone make those decisions,
No use of waiting for tomorrow,
Because I know its not there around the bend,
All of these are just illusions.

You can come now though,
Yet I can’t guarantee that it will be a sweet memory,
The choices are yours to make,
I never meant to keep you in sorrow,
Nevertheless it still makes my heart weary,
My dear please keep awake,

Do you remember the rainbow?
The scent of the sea?
Do you still remember all of that?
Too bad that all will not be here tomorrow,
I am sorry,
Please don’t be sad.

I felt wrong as you are,
The truth is I am afraid,
I am afraid of losing you,
I would not dare,
Hoping for something bad to come right by my side,
We made a mistake that we never knew.

I could not risk all the chance,
I can’t longer bare the tears coming from your eyes,
Tears that stated ‘don’t leave me’,
Let me just keep you in my glance,
For now and always,
Your kindness will always stays in my memory.

Dancing in the moonlight

When I look at you that night,
You shine like candlelight,
I say:
How wonderful,
How fortunate,
You are beautiful,
You are my fate.

I gave you my hand,
You reach them with a smile in hand,
You say:
How sweet,
How lucky,
Invite me for a dance tonight,
Invite me in your life for eternity.

We dance with happiness,
You looked at me with your grace,
I say:
I will always love you,
I will always miss you,
Please stay with me for I got nothing to do,
Please tell me what is in your heart that I do not know,

You look at me,
Then smile,
You say:
Hold me in your arms,
Hold me till the break of dawn,
I say:
This is not a dream,
This is what I want.

A different destiny

We are victims in our own world,
Only to seek where our feet meets the land.

Do we deserve this life?
Nor lady liberty would hold her knife.

We only strife to see what expecting us ahead,
Without even knowing what awaits.

We do so much,
However we only get so little on what we scratch.

Time is merely done,
This moment will remain still as to be mourned.

Crossing across these sleepless nights,
We hunger still for our right.

Bullets may punctured our flesh,
So far as we know we are yet to discover death.

We ought not to discover the beauty,
Instead we chose to abandon our humanity.

Live not,
Die not,
Only trust in God.

Time and ocean

This ocean ahead, witnessed my pain,
Should I fall to heed, nor to sustain.

Memories took me afar, to a land I not known,
Still drifted to soar, with a passion,

These eyes become weary, my fingers wrinkled,
Times eating me away, time remain single,

I come to realize, it is reality,
Not to fantasize, not to keep secrecy,

These breeze that blew, witnessed my sorrow,
Should I come to know,
Rather than to follow..

i want to know what love is

I got to take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I’m older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, I’ve traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Never to much nor little

There is nothing much I can give to you,
Except these words for your eyes to read through,

There are not much happenings in our life,
Unless we don’t do anything about life itself,

There is not much for your children to listen about your story,
Only if you got something out of this glory,

Remember,
That there is never too much,
That there is never too little,
Thanks to God the reason why we are even here,

Live life

Short necktie, hands reach out towards the sky,
We come and go,
Along with a long journey, so another can hear our story.

Drizzling rain, we dress almost the same,
We are going to attend for a wedding or a funeral,
Does it make any different, in the end we look for someone to blame.

Golden ring, brown coffin with silver plating,
A family will be born and people will cry,
Life never ending, everything is the starting.

Young fill with energy; the elderly will be facing with cruel reality,
When old time comes we only hope it will be better,
We sip either coffee or tea, friends for us to satisfy.

Time moves on, waiting events beyond,
Life is so sad and so happy,
Live for a reason, as if tomorrow never come.

My time is now

It is time to rest these fingers,
Time to put away this pen,
Nevertheless I am full with thoughts,
Still choosing words to join in it’s path.

It is then I stop crying,
When I know if everyone will be smiling,
But I doubt,
Even that I try for it.

It will be after that I walk away,
Not to run from anybody,
I have something in mind,
That only you can understand.

It will take forever,
To reach out for success without any favor,
I know destiny will not go where,
And I am ready to grab that dream no matter if it’s away.

Life’s beat

Family,
Friends and lovers,
Those who we care about,
Sometimes they are right beneath our nose,
We struggle to conquest,
Ever believing what life is not,
At the very edge we cry for whom we love.

Power,
Fame and fortune,
Are what people like us can’t let go,
It doesn’t matter how hard we try,
We will end up alone,
With darkness to flow,
Tongues fill with lies.

Insurance to hold,
Responsibilities we neglect,
Children we left crying,
People who we hurt deep into their soul,
Life that we wreck,
Time which we allow keep on standing.

Wretchedness,
Laughter and cheerfulness,
They never come leaping onto our lap,
Instead we need to earn them,
Life is moving fast,
Then make haste to every good chance.

Past,
Present and future,
We do what we can now,
Let past be our teacher,
Future is ahead; so let us prepare,
Forget for a moment what sorrow is for now,
Since life will not beats forever.

Road to a better beginning

This is the endless road,
The sun’s heat is burning my skin,
Against all odd,
My consciousness tells me to give in.

The burden is lifted,
Yet why do I still feel heavy?
My eyes turn red,
Yet why am I not feeling sleepy?

Question after questions,
Soon to be reveal,
Life carries on with emotions,
Our heart remains still.

Inhaling the air,
I could no longer felt the reminiscence,
Whether I am here nor somewhere,
Time is the essence.

Dreams are put on hold,
Only to sacrifice for those who we care,
Leaving us with nothing but our own soul,
In the end only God knows why we care.

This is the endless journey,
The grass is greener on the other side,
With hope and sympathy,
Our existence will not always be as dark as the night.

Tell me now: part 2

Tell me now what is it that made you happy,
Is it the glory or the pain you suffered all these years?
To see you here is no surprise rather than it is just another day,
The rain, it came down just like your tears.
If only the blue sky is as beautiful as you are,
I know that I will not be missing you everyday,
Sometimes I think about where you are,
And sometimes our joyful reminiscences are fading day by day.
We came all the way from beneath,
Holding onto our dreams for evermore,
When everything is put on hold,
We tend to forget what dreams even mean any longer.
Tell me now what is that made all things simple,
Is it wealth or the sweat you gain all these years?
To see you here is no surprise rather than to know how life is so ample,
The rain, it came pouring down today just like your tears.
I remembered perfectly the soft spoken words,
Live forever today,
Let future take control of what will come beyond,
I will remember that day.
A Hugh storm is coming our way,
It is time to leave everything behind,
Take your love ones and runaway,
Remember how beautiful life would be with a soul.
Tell me now what is it that made you leave,
Is it the exposure or the guilt you felt all these years?
To see you here is no surprise rather than to let things in grief,
The rain, it will come again tomorrow just like your tears.
The sun will eventually shine,
It is only a matter of time,
Once it shines again,
Life will worth every dime.

Destiny

Today I met destiny, with confidence and a warm smile.
Whether it is a rejection or an acceptance,
The choices are not mine to make,
My eyes glazed at the sea, knowing that my chances are in the line,
The air felt like deja vu all over again,
Without even realizing that I am wide awake.

Those streets I walked pass by this morning; it reminded me of you,
The closer I am to you, it appear more than just awkward,
The walls are closing in, but the street remains the same,
That is why life is not for the taking, that is why I am afraid to dream of you,
I might as well just go, bringing along this aching heart,
I leave nothing from within, only shame.

I am breaking every bone, just to get to you alone,
I can only hope you can see that I am no longer here,
Even the moonlight shines away,
There is nothing yet to be mourn, even if there still many things to be done,
The result is still unclear,
Until the day you wipe your tears away.

Destiny will stay by itself; it makes my heart desirably to return,
Questions are not reply, answers yet to be told,
By looking at the sea, I know it will not change my destiny,
Fate I will heave, tables I will turn,
These memories will fly, but not what it holds,
I choose to see, I choose destiny.

Renegades

We are far away from home,
Turn on the radio, put on forty four,
It’s no wonder why we are still in this game.

We drive miles away,
Sweating as we are, the love we care,
Wish only to keep the bill collectors at bay.

Life is not easy said and done,
We take off and take flight, planning never to return till we are fifty eight,
Even if we plan so much but nothing is ever been done.

Now it is time to stop for gas,
We reach into our pockets; put ourselves on some cigarettes,
The attendant can only say it is dangerous.

We request for a full tank,
Sadly for him, we never tell,
It is like walking on a wide plank.

I put my foot onto the gas paddle,
Waving our hands in the air, as a gesture that we will never pay,
I sigh and said how life is so simple.

Our destination is still farther upfront,
Turn on the radio, put on forty four,
It’s no wonder why we are still being hunt.

Reminiscence’s diner

Please say to me that all of these are over,
Say to me that these sorrows disappear,

I can only see that time will stay,
I can only wait for that day,

Look how happy we were,
Remember how we use to be together,

The hands of time ticks,
Yet my heart remain weak,

I will wait for you at the usual diner,
And don’t forget the lasagna

Just keep in mind,
Just keep in line,

I know you are here not for me,
But for the love we once had,

She is dreaming in the rain

The wind blew gracefully,
You dance amidst all the troubles in your life,
And yet you are able to throw a smile beautifully,
Although all the love you had was never enough.

The rain feels so cold,
It sips on every corner of your body,
As it is reaching to your soul,
It tells you to keep on dreaming everyday.

The troubles you will face tomorrow and beyond,
It shows that destiny is uncertain,
But you will carry on dancing until your day’s bygone,
Living in a world of dream it can be fun sometime.

Close your eyes,
Feel the rain,
Wish for the best,
And let yourselves lose in the rain.

DI MANAKAH PERGINYA ESOK

Sering aku melihat di luar sana
Tapi tetap saja aku melihatnya
Esok dan esok
Tapi tiada yang berubah hanya sebak

Bezanya hari ini
Ialah mecipta dan merancang nasib diri
Cuma terserah kepada kita
Kalau mahu merubah nasib yang ada

Terlalu banyaknya esok
Sehinggakan kita terleka dan asyik
Terlalu banyak janji
Sehinggakan kita terlupa apa erti hidup ini

Aku ingin merubah hari esok
Aku tidak mahu berpanas diwaktu sejuk
Apa gunanya kalau hanya tahu menanti
Kalau diri ini tidak sanggup berdiri

Kemana kah perginya hari esok
Kemanakah perginya juga kanak-kanak
Kalau hanya berbicara
Tiada bermakna kalau tiada telinga

Seandainya esok mampu aku ubah
Sudah pasti setiap hari-hari esok akan indah
Kendatipun ianya cuma satu khayalan
Esok dan takdir itu cuma hal keTuhanan

The rupture

We are not meant to be together,
Yet we are meant to be far apart,
Our love is here to stay,
Our promises left unchained together,
We can only hear the beats of our heart,
It beats faster the moment when you are away.

The wind blows not because it has to,
I love you not because I am desperate,
I love you because it’s our nature,
Wherever we may go,
I never stop loving but not to hate,
How easily we lose our love in such wide open rupture.

My heart tells me that you are so far away,
My heart tells me that you are leaving,
But what I know I believe in my love,
My love tells me that you will be here someday,
My love tells me that you will keep on wondering,
But what I know I believe in our love.

We are apart because I know,
I hope someday the time will come,
For the day when we will see new light,
This is the only way I fly to you,
With words I may roam,
Just so I may reach your heart.

Only

If there is glory there to behold,
It there are stories there need to be told,
I would run away from my troubles,
So that I may land into your wide open arms,

These days will always be empty,
Without your laughter and serenity,
I indulge myself by thinking of your smile,
To know how happy you are make my time worth while.

There is love that only you can give,
A life that only you can complete,
A smile that only your lips can show,
A twinkle that can only been seen in your eyes to say ‘I love you’.

Destiny of my life

Today I understand,
How life treat me the way it should,
How things finally makes up in the end,
Everything depends beyond the clouds.

I never met a person like you before,
You showed me that life is worth living for me,
To know you means that I want to be closer,
Closer so that I can feel your words is reaching me.

Destiny shows that life is beautiful,
But it will not be here if it is not because of you,
This life is full of people who we care most of all,
Life shows that it meant more then you should know.

To be given a choice is our destiny,
To live our life the way we wanted is destiny,
To love and be love is the way of destiny,
To feel the freedom of life is destiny.

The smile on your face,
Showed me how happy you are,
With these arms for you to embrace,
I can only say that I care.

Every season shall pass,
It will go on not without you,
Because in my life,
Everyday and everything starts with you.

Borrowed time

Where have all the hopes gone to?
If I let you stay will you go along with me?
I will never know,
Only time can answer thee.

Where will we go with this borrowed time?
Will you follow me back with the love in you eyes?
I miss so much of you that I keep on thinking when you will be mine,
Always have and I always will keep you closer in my heart and you’ll see.

If loving you means to run along with the clouds,
I rather bring you along into the blue skies,
May I have the honor to dance with you beyond the clouds?
Will I ever get the chance to stare tenderly into your brown eyes?

When will it be a perfect time for me to say I love you?
Will you be angry if I say such word that come from my heart?
I long for your touch and that’s for sure,
I promise to keep us from being apart.

My love,
Please take time to smell the flowers,
I hope you would enjoy this life embedded to you,
My love,
I wait for you here,
Even this borrowed time won’t keep me away from loving you.

The man who lost his lover

Within my heart its you,
In my eyes I can see your face slowly disappearing,
I want to say a lot of things but I don’t know how,
If maybe you would stay to tie my shoe,
If maybe you would stay for a while to sing,
Perhaps I would live to see another day pass by.

Beyond these mountains,
There are stories to be told,
Stories that is just as real as you and me,
As real as the earth and the heaven,
But what cold always stays cold,
Even if you are awake.

Your shadows diminish deep into the night,
You footsteps are moving away,
All are leaving but not your scent,
I wonder if I will ever see you again tonight,
If only I may say,
I regret letting you go with these hands.

I bought a nice dress for you,
A dress that comes along with a red rose,
Just so you may come back to me,
I will stay here just for you,
Waiting till the end of the candle blows,
I say I love you I say I need you and I say come back to me.

A name on the sand

It is just another name,
It is just another person,
For someone who feel the same,
You know there is no comparison.

We smile,
We cheer,
Not for fun,
But to celebrate about us.

We are only divided by space,
But these feelings felt so close,
More than words can say,
You took my heart away.

If only you are here,
This life could be wonderful,
For now and forever,
You make my days meaningful.

We wonder,
We dream,
Not for us,
But for these feelings.

You can always write a name on the sand,
To remember how beautiful those little words are,
Either it is your name or mine,
We both know that we care,

Only our feelings can tell,
Only these names got reasons to tell.

You took my heart away

Memories are yet fading,
Senses began to tingle,
But I am still standing,
Serenade myself into your smile.

I want to live for this moment,
On how you took my heart away,
I know something is waiting for us around the bent,
And there are reasons for us to stay.

The moment you took my heart away,
Is when your caring arise,
The time when life is just another passerby,
When sadness turn itself into happiness.

My heart feels the comfort by you,
Though we are a few miles away,
Life would be empty without you,
And time will simply sway.

Your words are passion in my eyes,
My world means nothing without it,
Even if I got wings to fly,
I rather crawl when I still can see it.

These are the soft spoken words from within,
To know you means a much blessing,
To fall for you is not a dream,
Words can’t describe my feeling.

You took my heart away,
By solitude,
By words,
By appreciate,
By an open heart,
By care,
All that is left in any case,
You still took my heart away.

My dear

Please my dear,

Don’t cry for me,
Cry only if you are happy for me,

The sweet things we did,
Might not be here but I remembered it,

We rarely see each other,
But I know we love one another,

If today I don’t say ‘I miss you’,
It doesn’t means I forget about you,

I’m here thinking of your voice,
I’m here thinking of the words you spoke in such elegance and soft,

Smile with me today my dear,
Wish as it is forever,

If only I could hold your hands
The way I used to hold them,

I’ll never let it go dearly,
I’ll wish that that time will move slowly,

To remember about you is the only thing that keeps my heart beat from going too low,
Please come back home soon,
Because I miss you so much.

A soldier’s oath

Oh wind of despair,
Drift me away from all these sorrow,
Which I ever long to get out of me forever,
And bring forth what I had vowed.

I could no longer sent out tears,
Due to what had happen to me,
Yet still it gives me the fear,
Of what will become of me.

With this rifle I held,
With this proud uniform I swear,
I will fight until my last blood shed,
I will fight until I will fall without any despair.

Pages of life

A beginning of a story,
An end for all never ending fairy tale,
Steps are taken willingly,
Where as decision is made harder to tell.

Happy is not and ending,
Instead it’s a new beginning of an end,
Everything soon will start craving,
It will haunt one’s mind.

Every story gives out lesson,
Every lesson gives out an understanding,
It’s not a riddle that needs an explanation,
Instead it’s the riddle that needs an understanding.

The snake and the cobra

My anguish is yours,
When time I know stops to meander,
While the river still flows,
Where it will meet with the ocean,
Sleep now my love,
Hope tomorrow we will see again,
This ground we lay our feet on,
It is just like you and I,
At this very moment,
The sun, wind and the rain,
We look up into the sky,
As though as tomorrow will never come,
Eye to eye,
Face to face,
Live not to lie,
Live just to be free,
Crime is not my way,
My time I hope to spend with you,
Thus only you will know,
If only you can see right through me,
I immerse in mud,
Bitten by serpents,
Just to seek for you,
But here we are,
Standing in between the rainbow,
It is just a matter of time,
Yet I sense regret within your eyes.

Empty space

If I know that you will be here,
I will not be going through the back road,
If only destiny we can decided,
I walk this street without fear,
The clock is ticking and we always come too late,
Just to feel the joy of happiness we create.

Life goes on only once,
Decision should be made clear,
Every step we take,
Another life we look at a glance,
With emptiness except that we are here,
Not to make anymore mistake.

The simple things we do,
Are the things we love the most,
The precious moments we spent,
Are the best times for us to grow,
Life is running fast,
Leaving no space for us to rent.

What we had now,
Is a blessing we should be grateful,
Not to waste every inch of it,
And never afraid to ask how,
It is never to late to ask for miracle,
It is never too late to believe in fate.

A poem of hopes

Time is not that bad,
Once we get use to it,
Unwanted memories are just myriad,
While fortune we put on hold at our feet.

There are those who hide behind the world,
But hiding won’t do any good,
Stories will not be foretold,
Mysteries will remain unseen the way it should not.

We try to reach out to the stars above,
Without anybody to carry us,
Leaving our empty hearts with love
Leaving our dreams in sadness.

What do you seek in life?
Behind every face lies a different persona,
What do you hope of life?
Every life shows a different agenda.

It is better to be trust,
Rather than to trust,
Because it will not be there
Waiting for us,
Not a minute nor second.

We take what we have now,
We keep what we know once it is over,
To remind us how hard life used to show,
To make us strong how life is so difficult without us suffering.

All these are only for you

All the blossoms in my heart,
Are only for you,
All these flowers in my sights,
They are all for you.

I can hear your giggles,
I can hear your laughter,
But I am missing your smile,
I am missing your figure.

Day after day,
You make my life happier,
And night after night,
I am here alone wondering how you been doing out there.

All the joy I felt in my life,
Are only for you,
All the sadness I felt in my tears,
They are all for you.

I remembered how you used to tender me,
I remembered how you used to look at me,
But I am missing your touch,
I am missing to look at your serene face.

Time after time,
You make me love you even more,
And smile after smile,
I know you would love me forever more.

Forgotten sunshine

I still remember the sunshine,
Only the scent of the air can remind me,
But I tend to forget most of the time,
How beautiful that day used to be.

I see nothing but emptiness,
In the dark nor under the bright light,
Every bit falls in sadness,
And I am still standing in the middle of the night.

It is no wonder,
Why my heart felt warm,
For I will not ponder,
On the day that will never come.

A sad story it may seem,
But what can I do?
Even my own world is dim,
With confuse path to go.

The whiff in the air,
Remind me of that time,
When all stood still and we can only glare,
And we were trance into a deep hymn.

Ever corner I go through,
Each bends on the road,
I realize it is just too few,
And it shows how you used to plead.

I seek nothing from you,
While you hope so much out of me,
What can I give you?
What is it that can make me see?

If you ask me ever again,
Whether I still remember the sunshine,
Whether we lose or we gain,
So thus you know how that day used to shine.

I will tell you how the birds used to fly,
I will tell you how the air use to feel like,
Hopefully you will understand why,
We live in a world alike.

Sadness

The darkness falls,
I can’t find you anywhere in between,
The air is cold through these halls,
It keeps my love restrain.

I saw you playing the piano,
With a sad tune and tears,
I can’t imagine living my life without you,
Going on each and everyday fill with fears.

When will the rainbow shows its color?
Within these great walls I can only hear you,
Your steps can only be heard on the floor,
But when you cry even I can’t hear you.

The love that we once used to share,
The smile upon your sweet face,
There are all gone for me to adore,
Everything is just at rest.

I want to see it happen,
From before till now,
It seems I began to lose every sentence,
All is down poured but not my vow.

When will I see the suns shine again?
I have a feeling I will be here even longer,
You took my heart and love away in vain.
I can’t seem to relate to it anymore.

You and me (ikaw at ako)

I am captured by your kindness,
The love I felt inside me is real,
My love for you will never rest,
This is the feeling I wanted to feel.

You and me,
The world is made just for both of us,
I love you more than anything in my life,
Although out heart are distant away but our love still blooms.

For any reason I am to fall in love again,
I rather be fallen to you,
There’s not a soul that can match your smile,
But the space in your heart is made for our love.

Munajah

Aku ingin kembali di jalanNya
Tapi mengapa ianya amat sukar
Adakah dengan perubahan ini hatiku sudah bersedia
Amat sukar bagiku meluahkanya dengan kata-kata apatah lagi inginku lakar

Pintu yang ada di dalam hati ini
Perasaan yang ku simpan untukMu
Semua itu ada jauh di sudut hati
Namun aku sedar yang diri ini milikMu

Ya Allah aku pasrah dengan keadaanku
Ya Allah aku rela kecundang dalam takdirMu
Aku cuma ingin hidup meniti waktu
Hingga hari itu tiba
Aku mohon terangi hidupku dengan cahayaMu

Egrets in the evening sun

A flock of egrets flew above my head,
But I am still here waiting,
While the ghost from my past haunts me,
I know there is no point for me to plead,
Nor to stop this feeling,
I rather just let it be.

It shows that you are not here,
I hold your hand,
Instead I can only felt the wind,
The path is still unclear,
For me to walk and stand,
Only my own shadow follows me from behind.

The days are getting older,
While the sun still shines like it was born yesterday,
But I still miss you so much,
The burden I weight on my shoulder,
The feeling I felt in dismay,
It is just the way how I long for your touch.

If I am no longer here,
Please carry on dancing,
Remember the good times we had,
Because you and I know it won’t last forever,
Yet our hearts still romancing,
And there is no need for you to be sad.

The flock of egrets disappeared beyond the horizon,
But I am no longer here,
While I look at our picture,
Like the sun left each season,
We know it will return again here,
For that day to come I will be here waiting for sure.

White lies

The world become still,
The wind,
The rain,
The clouds,
They freeze not to move after all,

Within the grasp of these confusion,
I realize I am missing something valuable in my life,
I learn to love her with passion,
Just so I may seek myself.

If only these white lies are true,
We could predict what waits at the end,
Perhaps I might be still dancing with you,
By my side I wish you are but destiny got plans for us around the bent.

These life are not based on imagination,
Instead it’s the imagination that needs to be live,
It’s hard to understand the conclusion,
Sometimes we even forget how to live.

I felt her touch gently flowing through my body,
The scent,
The sights,
The taste,
As though as it is slipping away from me each and everyday.

The days are getting older,
Children are growing faster,
The time is shorter,
The path to lead this life is limited.

Just like these white lies,
If only it can come true,
I am happy to see its bliss,
Yet there is nothing safe in this world to be sure.